Knowing a truth whether it is good, bad or ugly means that you can deal with it. Not knowing you must first deal with the unknown. So have you ever gone into the doctor because something isn't quite right and you find out you were right? Although there are times you want to be right there are also times that you would rather be wrong.
Either way there is a comfort in knowing the fact that you don't feel well and you aren't well. The frustration comes in when they can't tell you what it is that is wrong. You might have a benign growth causing problems or you might have cancer. YES that dreaded "C" word. They drop it on you and inform you that you need to wait.
I remember when they found a cyst in my right breast. The told me in all likelihood it was benign. I didn't need to have it removed. Really? A lump in my breast that I can't feel and you want me to leave it there? The wait for the surgery and then the wait for the test results while recovering from surgery were mentally exhausting. My cyst was just that a benign cyst.
Everyday walking in and out of the doctors office is a patient that was just told that they need to wait for test results. This week one of those patients was my sister. She was told that she had a cyst the size of a softball around her left ovary and another cyst on her right ovary. How do you deal with news like that?
I'm not sure what the professionals say that you should do but I know about me. When I heard my news years ago, I cried. When I heard my mother's news I cried. I was told that when my mother was told she had Chronic Myelogenous Leukemia that she cried too. The tears are good. We all know and understand the cycle of life but when it becomes personal to us it touches us in a way that before hearing those words we can't begin to explain or understand and the tears come. In one way I guess we could say that we cry for ourselves or self-mourn.
We could have a pity party and stay in that attitude. But another way to handle it is to compartmentalize. Connect with the people that we can share some of our self-mourning with who will uplift and encourage us. Deal with the emotional side and continue to move forward. Then deal with the unknown until it is known. Once the truth in known, the unknown can be set aside. Surround yourself with people that can take whatever fact is left and walk you through the facts.
Don't forget that you will always have the compartment to open up if you need to deal with an emotional side. After all, it will all come in waves and we all deal with things differently. Just step forward and deal with it - I don't want to hear that anyone is "stuffing it." Yes there is a difference between compartmentalizing and stuffing. Compartments are identified, categorized and sometimes organized. When something is stuffed, it is closed up, unseen and hidden away. Stuff too much and it will burst apart leaving an uncontrolled mess.
We love you little sis. We are praying you through the wait and we will pray you through the results.
New International Reader's Version (NIRV)
13 May the God who gives hope fill you with great joy. May you have perfect peace as you trust in him. May the power of the Holy Spirit fill you with hope.